Believe

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This had me sobbing the night I found it on Pinterest. I’ve been struggling with praying and my faith lately (read: for the last 6 years), and I find that I’m having a hard time talking to God like I used to. I often wind up non-prayers by asking Him to see what’s in my heart and help to accept His will. It feels incomplete and inadequate, and I need to know He’s still there. I feel so alone, anxious, forgotten. I always say that I can do anything as long as there’s an end in sight. That I can hang in, if I know things will get better. And it hasn’t felt like things will get better. And my heart just fucking hurts… and then this.

So I sobbed. And I saved it. And I’ve looked at it a thousand times since. And my silent heart is praying so damned hard that it’s accurate and soon. Because I don’t know how much more my heart can take.

 

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